Fall asleep when the Sun wakes up
I couldn't tell you what I was thinking of
I've got a fear of missing out and I'm not
Counting on what I think's up above
Damn how these four walls keep me in
I didn't leave my room today
'Cause I could think of a thousand ways I could go
And I'd rather be inside stoned and alone
No one needs to know
So I keep my head and phone on airplane mode
Learning the same lessons
I'm always second guessing
You'd think with all the thinking
I'd have an inkling or suspicion of what I'm doing wrong
But I'm still out on my ass smoking pack after pack
How long will I last?
Waiting for things that ain't come to [?]
Hypocrites die old
Except the ones that just don't
I guess that beats the odds of being good and dying young
Looking for the black and white
When everything's a different shade of gray
Lord don't take me till I do what I need to
Falling out over my own head again
Feel malaise in all my sins
They say it's easier to go than to get left behind
But I sure as hell ain't satisfied with my life I've been living by
Neck deep I'm drowning
Head first I'm falling
Scaring my friends with the mindset I've been in
The thought of burying my parents sure as hell does scare me
But the way that I've been living
Gives them better odds of them burying me
Hypocrites die old
Except the ones who just don't
I guess that beats the odds of being good and dying young
Looking for the black and white
When everything's a different shade of gray
Lord don't take me till I do what I need to
Lord don't take me till I do what I need to
I wonder how long it will take
To know my guard is up, my guard is up
I wonder how long it will take
To know my guard is up, my guard is up
I wonder how long it will take
To know my guard is up, my guard is up
Rushing to do nothing
While I'm trying not to waste away