Nothing ever seems to go
According to the plan we set in stone
I've tried to write my own way
But every road I take leads back to you
You did this to me?
No, I did
And if I can't be honest with myself
I can't be honest with you
But I'm losing it again
Fading in and out of consciousness
Yeah, I'm losing it again
I've dug this hole I'm buried in
I've taken my humanity
And dragged it through the mud
Built my chains, link by link
And waited for the flood
You did this to me?
No, I did
If I can't be honest with myself
I can't be honest with you
But I'm losing it again
Fading in and out of consciousness
Yeah, I'm losing it again
I've dug this hole I'm buried in
I was a waste of your life
I was a waste of your time
Just know I'm just as much a waste of mine
A fucking waste of life, life
It's what I lack in honesty
That keeps me from serenity
A stolen heart and baited breath
A monster that is cold
And left alone to face its own demise
To swim and drown in broken lives
The one caged bird you couldn't keep
Has clipped its wing; can only sleep
A stormy cloud from better days
A silken fog lost in the haze
But it's what I lack in honesty
That's killed the man I want to be
Killed the man I want to be