Wicca Phase Springs Eternal - Mystery

Everything is not what it should be
Thought it would be fine but I'm not yet
I cannot explain what I can't see
Shadow in my heart, that's a mystery
Here I stand alone, but it's not me
Tethered to my heart from the onset
This is all a consequence of being mine
Mirror thirty nine, you are nine three

When I'm not here, where do I go?
When I'm not with you?
Where does time go?
(Where does time go?)
I'm guarded, I'm unknown
Did I wait too long?
Or is time slow?
Do I know you? What do I know?

So the madness starts to manifest now
Here and now, I'm holding what eluded me
Hearing from the past but it's not yet
Path of the gnostics, babylon, you and me
Simulated mind, now inside of me
Something in the way I see myself is confusing me
Waiting here in pain, come deliver me
Time away from you (misery)

Everything is not what it should be
Thought it would be fine but I'm not yet
I cannot explain what I can't see
Shadow in my heart, that's a mystery
Here I stand alone, but it's not me
Tethered to my heart from the onset
This is all a consequence of being mine
Try to find gematria at thirty nine
Mirror thirty nine, you are nine three