Weyes Blood - In The Beginning

I gave my strength
For years like an ox I pushed
And for years like a ship I sank
To the bottom of that unknown sea

I'm still learning to be free and not so somber
Every night I stay up a little longer
Searching on that field of stars
Do you know who you are?
Can you dig up my tree?
Can you find what's inside of me?
Find the origin of my defeat

In the beginning, I was all dreams
Times have changed
I'm no longer the same

I don't want you to leave
It's so bittersweet
That this is the time you met me
I'm going through a long phase
I don't try to relate
I don't really try to find someone to sedate me
Hard out for remedy its so bittersweet
You and me