Umbrellas - Help

This is not what I thought it would be
it's not what I need.
I'm losing, I'm losing control today
you're quiet, got nothing to say

Muscles they tighten and constrict
I hope i don't suffocate
Hope i don't suffocate myself to death?

This is not what i thought it would be
It's not what i need
It's not what i thought it would be
It's not what i need.

I need a touch, I need a strum
I think maybe i need some help.

It's not what i thought it would be
It's not what i need

It's not, no it's not what i need
It's not what i need.

It's not no it's not what i need
It's not what i thought it would be.