Safemode - In Need Of Answers

Every now and then feels like it's
sad that I misjudged
every single time I fail you
help me find my path so I won't die in vain
looking for truth
throwing my failures behind me

Where's my savior
I fight for nothing?
what have I done to deserve this life
out of reasons, desperate for this
fill me up now

only you can heal
Only you can stand the sight of me
what have I become
all this time, all this time for nothing
my memory keeps coming back
when will this end
still I know
You're the only one who can save me

Me.. is this fake
Later on I understood
that this is for a greater good
it's something that I never understood