Nathan Wagner - Trauma

Trauma changes, rearranges
Takes the man I was and breaks him
Walls come up

All I am is numb and jaded
Ego splits, my soul deflated
Walls come up
These walls come up

All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody
But the man I used to be is so far gone
Circling through memories
All this trauma gets me trembling
No, I can't let you in, it's been too long

I'd rather feel nothing at all
Than have to deal with all the pain inside my heart
When she died I swore I'd never love again
And it's been years, but I'm still calloused up like this

All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody
But the man I used to be is so far gone
Circling through memories
All this trauma gets me trembling
No, I can't let you in, it's been too long

The man I used to be is dead and gone

I never feel alive
'Cause fear controls my life
I try to break this bind
But all these ghosts come with their knives
Don't wanna live this way
Afraid of everything
This trauma's taken me
I'm falling in the deep

All I ever wanted was to be loved by somebody
But the man I used to be is so far gone
Circling through memories
All this trauma gets me trembling
No, I can't let you in, it's been too long

The man I used to be is dead and gone
The man I used to be is dead and gone