K.Flay - It's Just a Lot

I never knew
The sky could burn a hole into my empty head
I never knew
A smile could turn us into enemies instead
Oh, the never-ending bliss of moments that you missed
Returning back like waves for second tries at luck
The luck you didn’t have back then but now that it don’t matter much
It’s easy love and strangers acting like your oldest friends

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

I should have seen
The signs, clovers starting dying in the field
I shouldn’t be
Surprised when all the sudden all of it is real
Oh, I tried to write a book but I misunderstood what I had seen and so the story made no sense
And stories all depend on whose perspective you prefer is it an I or is it her
And does it matter in the end

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

I saw a film
And cried cause beauty has a way of crushing me
I took a pill
And sighed cause I’ve done things against which I believe
Oh, I think of you at night when my mind won’t stay quiet
And I’ve got someone sleeping peacefully at home, but peace don’t reach my bones
The sadness still remains and though I sing the same refrain
It all amounts to no one knows

It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna hold onto the innocence I got
It’s just a lot, it’s just a lot
I wanna care for all the little things I got

You get it right
You get it wrong
It never stops
It’s just a lot