J. Cole - Breakdown

Look, I just shed tears homie and now I ain't to proud to admit it
Just seen my father for the first time in a minute
And when I say a minute I mean years man
Damn, a whale could have swam in them tears fam
Cause as I left em' I reflected on my younger days
When it was just me and my brother and my mother played
Father, cause no other man bothered
Not even my biological, it never seemed logical
But I accepted it cause I ain't know no better
Thought I was brighter than a Polo sweater
No pops was like Martin with no Coretta
So many things you could have told me
And saved me the trouble of letting my mistakes show me
I feel like you barely know me
And that's a shame cause our last name is the same
That blood type flowing through our veins is the same
My mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame
But that's no excuse, only you and God know the truth
And why you only call monthly, barely ever saw me
Spend some summers with you and played with my cousin Maury
Maybe I should be tellin' you fuck you cause you selfish
But I want a father so bad, I can't help but

Break down, I break down
Can't help but break down

I never thought I'd see my mama on that shit, man
It's fucking with her body, now she sick, damn
I wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool
Who would have ever thought that it would come to this, man?
Quicksand is what this life feel like
That shit these rappers kick is nothing like real life
You made a milli off of servin' hard white? Yeah right
My mama tell you what addicted to that pipe feel like
Stupid niggas, I heard the cops be shooting niggas
I swear to God, wish I could bullet proof my niggas
Can't get no jobs, but they still recruiting niggas
We tryna stand tall when it get too crucial niggas

Break down! We break down

He's serving time, locked down
And she don't want nobody to know, his daughter 25 pounds
By the time he get out, she gon' be 4
Now will his girl stay down?
Ain't no doubt she love him -- yeah that's for sure
But temptation stays round
And if she strayed, how could he ever know?
And so, she goes to the club on the weekend
A little freaking, but them niggas holla
But she never speaking, but tonight I see the devil creeping
Cause she been lonely, she ain't felt a man in 7 seasons
Damn! She do the best that she can
Her mama telling her to find another man
She college educated with a felon boyfriend
That's what she thinking tonight
Maybe she's right, but please

Stay down mama! Gotta be strong, don't break down mama!
Please