Failure - Swallow

Twisting slowly up the walk
I want to get there so quickly
but my body is not doing
what I thought (a knee) could do
(the pile) is getting slippery
your illusion's getting early
and I feel a certain panic
flowing through me... in waves

won't you listen
listen to me
won't you listen
can't you see
let me in
I've come (for/from) mother
let me in
for (------?)