Badflower Badflower - ​x ANA x

I can't feel my toes or my fingertips
My chest is pounding so fast, I can’t keep up with it
I'm losing it, fuck, I just want to quit
And I'm clenching my face and I’m touching my dick

I need a fix, Ana fix, and I'm sick of this
Showing people my tricks and my tics and a-judging me
Judging my fucking sex, Ana X, Ana X
And I'm faking just to stay in my body
I'm nervous, I can't fucking stand it

Well, if that's what they're giving me
The pills are my necessity, now
You won't fix my attitude
’Cause Ana does it better than you (Ana does it better)

Ana, you save my soul
Can you let me have my heart for a minute?

Yeah-hah, uh
(Where are you, Ana?
I need you)

Okay, I’m sick
Not the kind of sick that lands you in the doctor
Not the kind that makes you weak and then heals you stronger
It's the kind of sick that turns your legs into spaghetti
It’s the kind of sick that makes your blood burn and your bones heavy
The kind of sick that makes an atheist pray for Jesus
The kind of sickness that turns your power into weakness
And I'm sick of being sick for this whole fucking place to witness
And I'm living a sick life that most people call privileged
And they're kinda right, but I’m still sicker than I can cope with

Ana, you save my soul (my soul)
Can you let me have my heart for a minute?
I suffer for a living
There has to be a limit
You know I love you so (you so)
But that's what I've been given

Ana (Want you to save my soul)
Ana (Want you to make me slow down)
Ana (Want you to save my soul)
Ana (Want you to make me slow down)

It's showtime
I got a lump in my throat
And I forgot how to breathe
I only know how to choke
And all these people are waiting
To see the kid with the rage
But I'm afraid he might collapse
Before he gets to the stage
I need X, Ana X, help me bury my thoughts
And all the pressure I suffer to be someone that I'm not
I'm shaking a lot
(Hey, don't fuck up tonight, it's your only shot)
Ready or ready or ready or ready or not
It's a party

You know I love you so
Ana, you save my soul
Ana (Two pills coming up, let's roll)
Ana (Don't make me lose control)
You know I love you so
Ana, you save my soul
Ana (Two pills coming up, let's roll)
Ana (Don't make me lose control)

Okay, the song is over now, but I'm not ready to go (Ana)
See, this is the shit that happens when I stay awake for days at home (Ana)
Hey, wanna see what happens when I mix Xanax, blow, and a MacBook Pro?
(Don't make me lose control)

Ana (four pills coming up, let's roll)
Ana (too late to save my soul)
Ana (chew it up, chew it up, let's go)
Ana (coming up, coming up, let's roll)
Ana, you save my soul (my soul)
'Fer for a living, has to be a limit
You know I love you so (love you so)
My anxiety traps me like a prison

Well, if that's what they're giving me
(That's what I've been given)
The drugs are my necessity
(I can't live without you)
You won't fix my attitude
(Ana does it better)
Ana, you make me slow down
(Joey's gonna hate this)

Ana does it better
Ana does it better
Ana does it better
Don't make me lose control
(Ana)